i miss you unintentionally

its been four months and I still can't seem to forget you. I still eagerly wait for you look at my snapchat story as this is the only way I can have some form of interaction with you. After weeks of not looking at my story it felt you shut up even the last way of communication. Recently, you were back online and I felt a sign of relieve that I was able to see an update.

I don't know how I feel these days, I miss you so bad I don't know if it is because I haven't experience new love. Even though I want to experience love again, I also fear these series of events will happen again. Im scared. Im lonely. Home has will always be my escape but when times get busy. I have to use uni work as my shelter. A way of making myself busy but this leads to stress. All I want is the opportunity to see you just once more. Is that too much to ask ? Or is this even the right way to address my emotions. or Maybe its better I don't see you as that might make me miss you even more.

Fate

Reading about Fate online and reflecting on the people i have met these past few months since September. Maybe it was fate Alex and I met, how I clearly remember how we met and my first impression. If I didn't go to Hatfield back in sept I wouldn't have met him. I remember I sold my Beyoncé ticket thinking it was not worth it but turned out it was. Maybe it was fate we crossed paths but maybe it was fate it not be in each other's lives anymore. I just want to see u once more maybe it will change things, but I can't stop missing u because I haven't met anyone better yet. Maybe fate has yet to come for me to meet someone else.